Saturday, April 10, 2010
it happens to finished now.
i'm still screaming inside.
to fly away.
the birds and bees agree,
i'm far too late.
in this world sorrow reigns.
like the storm of each day.
and i'm suffering.
striving, crying out
so now instead of biting my nails i just pick at them. they keep getting jagged though and it bugs me.
i have nothing much to say. that little poem there i just came up with on the spot. just trying to describe a feeling.
my puppy makes me sneeze. seriously. when i decide to hold him and all that i get the sniffles.
i keep wondering if i'm secreatly allergic to dogs because i used to sneeze a lot every time i came home from college to visit. and it was only in the house around the dog.
so maybe. i don't know.
i'm thankful for my father, for when he actually manages to help instead of just annoying me. of course i'm grateful simply for having somewhere to stay in the first place.
i'm also thankful for being able to deal better with my emotions, the ones that are extreme.
yesterday could've gone really bad if i hadn't done my best to calm down.
i like getting emotions out in painting. i like being colorful.
i like you. <3
and honestly, i think about him less now. worry less now about whether he'll accept me or not. just don't know what i'll do, but i can always think of something.
all my love,