heartless

so my emotions are all over he place. still.
it bugs me like nothing else.
i can't seem to figure out the little things that seem to set me off.

today i am tired. so tired.
i threw up breakfast.
my father left me in the blazing heat of the car for half an hour while he spent time in a keyboard store because he felt like just looking around.

we came home and i ate some cereal only because i knew it would settle my stomach. i don't feel nauseous anymore, so i know that worked at least.

i'm going to meditation group today, even though i feel so drained.
it might put me in a better mood.

i'm getting really annoyed because my lips are constantly dry and i keep having to grab my softlips more than i think ought to be necessary.

i am thankful that the sun is out today though. and thankful that i didn't lose my temper with my father, even though i was sorely tempted to.

right now i'm just weak. in mind, body, and spirit.
so think what you will. i can only be what i am.

all my love,
Heather