i keep wait, wait, waiting and still i'm getting nothing.
oh! but he did respond to something today! it wa something unrelated to us, but, none the less, it's significant because it means he's okay with me in some way. so yay! that;s a good sign.
and you have to know, i do realize that waiting and suffering because of it is completely, entirely, utterly worth it to me. so very much when i get the feeling things will work out as i'm hoping.
it might mean i'm in the right place right now. well, not physically, but..hmm...well, in this journey. i'm on the right road, rather.
the sun is oh, so, shining this day. it was stuck behind the clouds, and i started praying while i walked along, on one of my usual half-hour strolls, and i prayed, and then the sun came out into the bright blue sky just as i ended my prayer.
so i don't know if you believe in signs, but i sort of, kind of, maybe do, just a little, and i'd take that as a sign, some type of answer, some kind of meaning.
life can be lovely, i think. even when i'm down.
and i applied for a job today at a pharmacy. low chances of getting it, but hey, it's always worth a shot. at least i'm trying. that counts for something, right?
my heart is all up high right now. because he talked to me. i mean, really, he actually said something. he actually responded.
and that makes all the difference.
i have a renewed fervor for patience in all of this.
wait, they don't love you like i love you.
all my love,