i'll beg you nice from my knees
so i typed up this whole blog just now and then i lost my connection and it didnt freaking save it.
basically, i'm frustrated like crazy right now.
i have a really hard time dealing with things i just don't understand.
it hurts, too.
i have no idea what the hell is going on.
and i have no idea what i was thinking in the first place.
when this whole thing began, not too long ago, i was all psyched up about it. and now it's already turned to crap. pretty much. and i have no answers yet.
freaking sucks is all. yep.
i'm afraid of ending up alone and sad. i'm afraid of missing out on love.
that's one of the best things about life.
i just can't let it go.
i'm hoping on someday.
with all my heart,