well, now what?
so...i feel like someone must be messing with me. life must be messing with me.
after all this time, can i really belive the gods have finally smiled upon me and have granted me what i was looking for? just like that?
it feels too good to be true.
now i'm faced with a choice and i keep thinking and thinking about it and i'm still not sure.
ah, such is life.
but this is seriously...
strange for me.
oh, i just don't know what to do. A part of me says YES and a part of me says WAIT.
and i'm like...so afraid of making the wrong choice.
there are a million what if's in my head right now. it feels like it anyway.
but more so, i'm afraid of getting hurt again. people have surprised me in the past with how much they've failed to really care.
life is scary. strange. surprising.
and i have to make a decision here. oh dear.