and just like that

i went on a walk to clear my head.
i was wearing a long sleeve shirt and a sweatshirt and a coat and i still felt occasional rain drops on the back of my arm

walking though. walking hasn't been working out me so much in recent months. i would go out and listen to my music and come back feeling awful still.

not tonight. tonight, by the time i got to my third song, i was already feeling so much better. i started picking more positive songs. and smiling.

i had another episode earlier. voices and all. but i pushed myself up off the floor and got out walking and let all the tension go.

things are changing for the better. i have been so incredibly happy this past week. i can handle this. i can handle myself. i can cope with these things that haunt me inside. i can.

all my love,
Heather